i woke up this morning feeling tired and nervous. i finished studying last night around 12 am and i got up 5:30. i felt like i just slept for only a while. my head ached and i was so nervous. i went to school stilll feeling nervous. i didn't finish all the concepts yet. i still had many concepts to memorize and understand. i couldn't concentrate studying in the room for all the people are talking about the concepts. wheeww this was really hard, i thought.
when it was my turn for my oral defense, i became relaxed. i never felt any nervousness. i though one of my favorite intructor will be my panelist. so i went to my room and waited for him. but to my surprise, it wasn't him. it was a different instructor. one that i've never been with. i became really nervous and scared. but then as i spoke, i became relaxed and confident.
in the middle of my defense she threw questions that really made my mind work. i didn't care if she thought my defense was wrong. i just told her what i thought was right. then she suddenly asked me "do i deserve your work?" i was shocked with her question. it made me feel that my work is all wrong. i really controlled my feelings and told myself not to cry. my tears didn't fall for my mind was really working and searching for answers.
in the end, i still got a nice grade. i got 1.75. the highest grade is 1.0. wheeww.. that was close. i really hate orals. oral recitation, oral demonstration and oral revalida.
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