it doesn't feel right

so me and my boyfriend broke up yeasterday. when i woke up today, i thought it was a dream but when o checked my inbox, it really happened. I kinda hope that he will text me and tell mw he still loves me. I wanna text him but i don't know why i can't do it. I feel hurt but i'm cool with it. Idk what to do. I want to be with him but i miss myself. I'm so afraid. I might not be able to fins somebody as good as him. he is the best guy i met so far. They say you should follow what's in your heart but idk' i think if i would talk to him to fix our relationship, i think it will be messy agon in the future. Im really confused. :(